Monday, September 27, 2010

Weigh in!!

So this morning I got on the scale and it was at 185.6!!! I'm .4 away from my first 10lbs loss so in my book that counts I can't wait to see what it is next week!! Tonight I went to a kickboxing class it was awesome so intense and I will for sure being going most monday's. The only bad part was that I did my resistance training this morning and worked out my arms big time and the class was a lot of arms. Not a good idea so I will not be doing that again before I go to the class. Did anyone else have a weigh in today if so how did it go??

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.

My husband. He is such an amazing man and saved me from an awful relationship. He is always there for me and is always so loving. I don't know where I would be without him and I love him so much. God has blessed me with an amazing man!

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
No one has made it hell but I have had my share of some bad boyfriends. Ones that were physically, mentally, and verbally abusive. A couple cheated on me but that has made me appreciate my husband so much more. I never worry or think twice about him cheating on me.

    Saturday, September 25, 2010

    Feelin Good!

    So I'm back in my groove after a few days of exercise slacking. I think if I wouldn't of have kept up with the meal plan that would of have spelled out disaster! I have worked out the last three days and I am feeling awesome! When I don't work out I feel all lazy and blah then when I do work out I feel great, but when I'm feeling lazy the last thing I want to do is workout. My body is crazy. Going out with some friends tonight for dinner (I'll make the best choices possible) and mini golf so excited! Can't wait for my weigh in Monday hopefully I have a loss I am supposed to have lost around 12lbs by Monday. I know that won't happen but I'm hoping to be at my first 10lb loss mark!!! Have a good night everyone!

    Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
    I hope that I never have to bury a child of mine once I have them that would be so awful!! I also hope I never lose a family member to an accidental or purposeful death. (is that the right word) In a perfect world I want all of my family to go peacefully. I know it's God's plan and he has the final say in that area but still : )

      Friday, September 24, 2010

      Day 5 Of 30days of Truths and a blog award!!

       30days of Truths:
      Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life. I would love to go to Hawaii but am terrified of flying and flying for around 8hours over water does not sit well with me. I hope I can overcome that fear and have an awesome vacation with my hubby.

      Another blog award I love these things and appreciate it so much!! Bethanny @ Bethanny is Sick of Being Fat nominated me for this check out her blog it is by far one of my favorites and so funny!

      Thanks Bethanny!!
      The rules are simple: first:answer the question, "If you had one chance to go back and change one thing in your life, would you and what would it be?” I would change my laziness. I am super lazy when it comes to doing stuff, it gets done but I always wait until the last min. That also ties into my working out I always think about doing it but always wait until the last minute to get it done.
      Now I must pass this award on to six people and inform them of this award.

      The Milwaukee Diet Diva - Love this girls blog and she always has good ideas!

      Whitney@ Slimming Down For the Gown- She always has awesome recipes and pics of healthy food I love that!

      Thunder Thigh Bride- She just got married!! Love her blog

      Sherron@Shoes To Lose- This girl has come a long way in her goals and is really inspiring!

      Robin and Roxie @cute by comparison- They always have great blog posts and I love the random pictures

      Oliva@But you have such a pretty face- She is kicking butt at her weight loss goal

        Thursday, September 23, 2010

        Blog hop and 30days of truths...

        Is it bad that I can't stick with a 30day about me and I fail at day 2 lol I haven't been sticking to my work out plan to well either, I need to get out of this funk. Normally Saturday is my rest day since I have meetings at work and get home and we usually go out but that will sometimes go into Sunday as well especially since football has started and there is a game on when I get off of work. Monday I normally get back into it but this past Monday I had so many errands to run, then school, I am just burnt out when I get home. I know I know excuses excuses if I really wanted it I would make time. So this Tuesday I got back into it but then skipped Wednesday, I Got up cleaned house all day deep cleaning which was nice and then went to school. Right after school we had reservations at the Melting Pot and got home late. So today I changed my attitude and worked out even though it was the last thing I wanted to do, and it felt great! I'm back and I'm excited even though I wasn't really gone. I have been following my meal plan everyday except for dinner last night so I'm hoping to still see a loss next week only time will tell! I'm going to finish up with my two questions and the blog hop link.
        Oh I changed my hair color yesterday no more blond for me!! Here is my pre workout pic!

        Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
        The only thing I have done really that I have the most regret for is letting myself get out of shape so bad. I was never over 130lbs until I graduated highschool and got a job in a call center and always sitting and eating, pair that up with birth control and no exercise at all is not good for the figure. I wish I would of have taken action sooner. But I can't live in what ifs and I should have. I need to forgive myself and do something about it.

        Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
        I'm not really one to hold grudges and there isn't anyone who has really done something to betray me that is still in my life. I don't have an answer for this.
        : / I guess that's a good thing : )

          Tuesday, September 21, 2010

          Not in the mood...

          I'm seriously not in the mood to workout but I need to force myself to get up and just do it I have skipped the last 3days thank god I haven't fell off the eating wagon!!! How do you make yourself work out even when you really would rather not? Well here goes nothing...

            Day 2 of 30days of truths:

            Day 02 → Something you love about yourself. Hm I can't really think of anything I love about myself. I feel that I am a good wife and I treat my husband the way he deserves to be treated. I love that I'm easy to talk to and I feel I can give good advice. Is it weird that I feel weird posting this lol

              Monday, September 20, 2010

              30 Days of Truths

              In addition to my posts I'll be doing 30Days of Truths I got the idea from The Milwaukee Diet Diva!

              Day 1: Something You Hate About Yourself
              So I hate that I let myself get overweight. I hate that I know I need to workout yet I can't find the motivation to get off of the couch and do it. I really want to change that about myself I know it will be good for me in the end and help me achieve my goal I'm just so damn lazy!

                Friend Makin' Monday

                Kenz @ All The Weigh

                Another Friend Makin' Monday!

                This week the topic is health and body image.

                Health and Body Image

                1) If you could magically change one thing about your body, what would it be? I think the obvious answer would be my weight and body shape. I also would like to get rid of the stretch marks I have gained in this lifetime.

                2) What is your best physical feature? I always get complimented on my eyes so I'm going to go with that I don't have too much self confidence as of now.

                3) Do you weigh yourself daily? Hourly? Weekly? Bi-weekly? Never? I was weighing myself everyday but now I'm going back to once a week. I like the suprise.

                4) Do you workout regularly? If so, how does if affect you from day to day? I workout 5-6 times a week about 45mins a day which isn't too bad. Somedays its hard for me to find the motivation to get up and do it but I manage to get it done. It takes up a lot of my life because all I do is work, workout, and have dinner.

                5) What is the healthiest thing you do for yourself on a regular basis? I think a lot of things I do are healthy.  I work out 5-days a week, I drink water only all day everyday, and I also am following a meal plan with little processed foods and no soda or alcohol (most days on the booze part)

                6) If you could look like a celebrity, who would you choose to look like? I would want to look like Katherine Hiegel (sp) I think she is so pretty and has a perfect body.

                7) What do you do to make yourself feel pretty/handsome? Get my hair and nails done or wear a dress

                8) What are you most attracted to in the opposite sex? I'm a sucker for nice smile and eyes with scruffy look.

                9) Have you ever avoided situations because you didn't want people to see your body shape?Yes! I have gained A LOT of weight since highschool and most of friends haven't. Whenever I get invited to parties and stuff I always decline because I don't want people to see. Or if a family function comes up and there are people who I haven't seen in a while I get so embarrassed.

                10) How do you feel about your overall appearance? I think I'm attractive but I have a long way to go

                Now it's your turn to tell us a little about how you view yourself. Don't forget to add your link on the above list under the fmm pic, so we know to check out your post! Thanks for being a part of Friend Makin' Monday!

                  It was a long weekend

                  My life has been pretty uneventful lately. My daily routine is get up make breakfast, lunch, and two snacks for work,then go to work come home, work out, then make dinner, watch tv then go to bed. Everyday is the same unless I'm off of work then I go to school. It's time for a change but I have no idea where to start. Anyway I'm a little disappointed in my morning weigh in. Last Thursday when I weighed in I was at 186.8 then today 4days later I am at 186.7 I lost .1lb. Does that even count as a loss??? So I am going back to once a week weigh ins instead of everyday. Monday is the new day to weigh in since its a start to a new week. I don't understand why the scale hasn't moved at all. I have been eating right and working out the days I am supposed to and still nothing. I am going to try to change it up a bit to see if I can get some results. Granted this is my first time without a loss and I didn't even go the full week, but still. Lately when I get home from work I work out then eat dinner, which would have me eating dinner around 9-9:30, I usually don't go to bed until midnight anyway so I do have enough digestion time in there but I still think its too late. So this week I am going to try to eat first when I get home then workout after my food has settled of course. I think that may help. I just really want to get to this first 10lb loss mark and I know I can do it and I'm almost there.

                  I also want to start running again it has finally started to cool down in Az a bit and I'm ready to get back into C25K again. I think the added cardio will for sure help me lose some lbs. The only thing is that I like to run in the evening because I hate getting up early so that's not an option, but that means running in the dark by myself. My hubby doesn't want to run because he is trying to add on lbs with muscle and he is the type that any type of cardio makes him lose weight (men have it so easy!) So I'm kind of at a loss because I am a big fradey cat and wont run alone at night. Maybe I should just suck it up and do it in the am. I really want to run in a 5k and add that to my list of accomplishments in my weight loss journey. Any suggestions?

                  Do any of you enjoy running and if so do you ever do it alone?

                    Thursday, September 16, 2010


                    So yesterday I went to get ready for a concert and wanted to wear jeans. I only have one pair that fits comfortably size 15 by the way, but they are super baggy but the ones that are smaller are too tight. So last night I tried on a smaller pair just to see and they fit!! Not only did they fit they were comfortable, I didn't have any muffin top, or pooch, they even were a little baggy on the butt!! I was so excited I can't wait to see how my clothes will fit in a month. I bought a pair of shorts and they were my size but still didn't fit but instead of taking them back I saved them I can't wait until the day they fit! How long into your journey did it take for you to notice a difference in your clothing?

                      I couldn't believe my eyes!!

                      So I got on the scale this morning and when I did I looked down and saw 186.8!! I couldn't believe it. I looked at it and thought to myself, "hm no that can't be right." So I moved it and tried it again and it said the same thing!! My totm is about over and so when I checked my weight on Sunday it was at 188.4 or around that I can't remember but I guess that was bloating. Now its almost gone and I'm down to 186.8! I'm so super excited I am almost to my 10lb mark! I think it wont take much longer for me to get there because I moved up on Power 90 to phase 3-4! It kicks my butt but I can definitely feel the difference. It's so much more intense and faster paced. I actually get sore and tired when before I would be tired but never sore. I'm excited to do my next 30days and see what the results will be! Hope you all have a good day!

                        Wednesday, September 15, 2010

                        Blog hop!!

                        Another week another blog hop!!!

                        Monday, September 13, 2010

                        Friend Makin Monday and Weigh in

                        So today I weighed in and I only lost .4lbs I was at 188.4lbs such a bummer! I just started my totm yesterday so that may have something to do with it but I have no idea. I'm a little bummed since like I said before I wanted to be at 185 but I only have 3lbs to go so I will be "bringing it" this week. Tonight I'm going to be going to a kickboxing class that should be fun instead of doing my normal cardio workout. Then tomorrow its time to take the 30day mark pics.

                        I linked up with a Friend Makin' Monday linky so if you want to join and find some new blogs the link is below!

                         1) What was the most enjoyable part of your weekend? Went out with hubby Saturday night and had so much fun. We haven't done something just me and him in a while. We had a new pizza place and dessert at the melting pot so yummy!

                        2) List two or three material possessions that you can't live without: My phone, blender for all my breakfast shakes, and probably my laptop. Even though I dont NEED it I like to have it.

                        3) Which day are you looking forward to most in the coming week? Wednesday, I'm off of work and going to a concert with my family

                        4) Share one of your most embarrassing stories. When I was in 6th grade my teacher wouldn't let me use the restroom when I felt sick to my stomach and I ended up throwing up everywhere

                        5) List three of your "must-read" blogs and tell us why we should read them too!

                        1.Awkward Sex and the City If you don't mind a vulgar blog she is super funny!

                        2.Bethany is sick of being fat Also really funny

                        3. A little pink in a world of Camo. I recently stopped following this blog but if you find it its super good. My only recommendation is to read from her day one and go forward and not read anything recent.

                        Now it's your turn to get involved and answers these questions. You can answer them here or in your own post. Just be sure to share a link so everyone can see it. Have a good week friends!

                        Note: When adding your blog's url, please be sure to include a direct link to your FMM post so you can receive comments from new and old blogging friends as well! Want to join here is the original posters page and link up!!

                          Sunday, September 12, 2010

                          Yes I'm still here!

                          So It's been a week since I actually made a real post and not to much has happend. On Monday we went to hubby's dads bbq and I think I did ok. Had some ribs, potato salad and fresh fruit with some reisling. Then for dessert which I could of have done without, we had a small brownie with ice cream. The kind that comes in a small cup with a wooden spoon. We spent the majority of the day in the pool and was too exhausted to work out when we got home. So once again two days in row skipped. I went and weighed in for the biggest loser challenge on Wednesday after school. I was bummed though because I weighed in for the contest and it was 9 at night so the reading wsn't accurate and I was embarrased to have someone else see my weight besides hubby and you guys : )

                          I really wanted to be a 185lbs by tomorrow but I don't think that's going to happen I got on the scale this morning and it was 188.0lbs boo. Earlier this week it was 187.7 but that's the lowest I got. It's still a loss but normally I lose about 2 a week and this wasn't even a full 1. I guess I'm getting greedy. I decided that Saturday's are my days off from working out. They are always too busy to try to fit something in. It's also a day where I eat a little junk food. I don't want it to call it a "cheat" day because I don't consider what I'm doing a diet it's a lifestyle change. Just a day where I don't make the healthiest of choices. The weather is getting a little bit nicer here in Az I can't wait to start running. I'm ready to finish c25k! Hubby ran with me before but now he isn't sure he wants to anymore because he is trying everything to gain weight and running will help him lose. I considered doing it on a treadmill but I like to do it outside especially since I want to run in an actual 5k. He's the only one I want to run with I hope he changes his mind. On Tuesday we take our 30day pics I'll post them up So you guys can see my progress if any : )

                            Friday, September 10, 2010

                            Another Blog game!

                            I was tagged in a game by Sarah at My F.A.B. Challenge So Fun!

                            1. If you had 3 wishes, what would one of them be? To be at my goal weight without the work but I know at the same time it will make me work harder to maintain and appreciate what I accomplished

                            2. What is your ultimate goal, at this point and time? To be a stay at home mom and raise a family while being an awesome wife.

                            3. Do you know what your Pace time is? If you do, what is it? No I don't do any running as of now but will soon!

                            4. What's your favorite season and why? Fall I live in Az and summers are crazy so its a nice break but still not too cold

                            5. If you could have any piece of workout equipment (free to you), what would you want? a treadmill or eliptical but nice ones

                            6. Do you have a "bucket list"? If you do, what's one of the things on it (if you don't mind sharing)? I dont : (

                            7. If you had a free UNLIMITED shopping spree at any store, what store would you go to? That's so hard!!! I would say coach or tiffany and co. Since clothes are not my best friends.

                            8. Who is your biggest support in your life? Jesus even though I go to him for support I still feels he supports me, and my husband

                              Wednesday, September 8, 2010

                              Blog award and nominees!

                              My first award was from Stephanie at She's In There Somewhere I really appreciate it! So now I have to name seven things about myself then pick seven bloggers to do the same : ) Here goes nothin!
                              • I am the only child from my parents they split up and married new people and had thier own kids.
                              • I was 4months from getting married and left him, and everything we had for someone I knew was better for me and I married him!
                              • I don't have any hidden talents
                              • I work for att and we sell iphones but I have never used itunes without assistance from hubby because I can't figure it out.
                              • I have never broken a bone
                              • When I was growing up all the way to 18 I was cosidered "underweight"
                              • I'm a hopeless romantic and love to be wooed but I wish my hubby would do it more
                              and my nominees:

                                Blog hop and award!!

                                Its time for another blog hop! Join me and other women by sharing your weight loss blog! Also I won my first award so excited!!! I'll post it in a bit have to study for a test!

                                  Sunday, September 5, 2010

                                  Biggest loser challenge!

                                  So I made a decision. If you have been reading you may remember me mentioning joining a biggest loser contest. Well I decided I'm going to do it. Its one weigh in a month which isn't bad and I have the chance to make some money and it will help with motivation. The first weigh in is on Tuesday but I will probably go Wednesday I'm going to bring my scale as well so I can see how much of a difference from hers to mine so I can see where I stand in the contest. Anyone interested in an online challenge? No money involved just weekly weigh ins we share together and see who can become the biggest loser! I always thought that sounded so negative. But now I get it. Anyway off to work out everyone enjoy their day off tomorrow!

                                    Saturday, September 4, 2010

                                    Another weigh in.

                                    So I usually do my weigh ins on Sundays, I don't really know why but I like that day. This weekend I did it on Friday morning because I knew this weekend wouldn't be the best of eating weekends. So I got on the scale and it said 188.8!!! I was so excited I haven't been under 190 since around Febuary. At the same time I'm a little worried about ruining it. Hubby wanted to do a date night yesterday and then tonight I am going to sushi with mom so I know I'll be retaining a lot of water because of the high sodium so my weight would be off if I would of have weighed myself Sunday. I'm not planning to go crazy but I dont want to be disappointed tomorrow morning. Also on Monday we are going to a bbq at the father in laws I may bring some fish for him to grill but not sure yet. Anyway I didn't do too bad last night. We went and had Mexican food we ordered a quesidilla to share which I probably could of have done without and I had fish tacos but i only had one because I didn't like it at all and a few chips and salsa. We also had frozen yogurt that was delicious by the way! This morning I had my breakfast shake because we were having a  meeting at work, they usually always bring doughnuts so I figured that if I have my shake in the morning I will not have one. Well that backfired, through the course of the day I have already had 2. I don't understand why I don't have any self control. but I'm not going to dwell everyone has an off day and I will work harder in my workout. So tonight my plan is to have sashimi which I don't see being too bad and maybe sharing a roll with my mom at sushi I was going to have some wine but decided I don't need the empty calories after my day and last night. What do you do to recover from falling off the healthy eating wagon?

                                      Thursday, September 2, 2010

                                      Another Blog hop!

                                      Another blog hop!! This one is fun and a good way to get to know everyone! If you want to join go Here!
                                      I like...Lazy days at home with my hubby and dogs

                                      I don't like...when people but the toilet paper on backwards

                                      I love...Jesus

                                      I dream of...being a homemaker and raising a family

                                      I long it will take for me to hit my weight loss goal

                                      I know...that I have to learn how to talk about why I'm mad instead of shutting down

                                      I New Orleans in May and will probably never go again. (Not my kind of place)

                                      I amazing husband and family

                                      I think...nothing can hold me back from hitting my goal

                                      I plan... to lose 50lbs by next June

                                      I regret... not going to college after highschool and not getting my nail tech license
                                      after nail school

                                      I do... want to pay off all of my debt

                                      I drink... water all the time but wish I had other options on my diet

                                      I wish... I didn't have to work

                                      I am... a woman, a wife, a sister, a daughter, a friend

                                      I am not... where I want to be in my life with my body

                                      I need... to not give up and stick to my goals

                                      I hope...that this time it all pays off

                                      I want... to be sitting at home with my hubby either swimming in our pool with a booze drink or on our couch watching greys anatomy.

                                      I sometimes... dont give myself enough credit

                                      I always... put others before my

                                      I can... cook really well if I apply myself

                                      I retail at a cell phone store

                                      I cannot.. keep putting things off until the last minute

                                      I avoid... arguments because I hate to argue

                                      I will... not give up

                                        A lot of catching up to do...

                                        It's been a few days since I last wrote, I don't even know why I have been coming on and reading everyone Else's blogs but haven't had the motivation to write in my own. I guess now that I have built up a following I should write more  : ). Sunday was a fail for me all of my hard work pretty much went down  the drain that day and my lack of sleep finally caught up with me. First off the day before we once again went out with some friends and they wanted to go to a wine bar. That is my biggest weakness!  So we went and I had a wine flight which was amazing by the way I figure why deprive myself of things I love. I'm going to die in the end anyway so why not do what I like but still not give up on my goal or over indulge! We got some food while we were there but it was the healthier options but then we went and  had frozen yogurt. That I'm sure I could of have done without but whatever. So the next morning is my weekly weigh in and I figured I would of have lost something but the scale was not liking me that morning. I Went from 191.8lbs the previous week to 192.2 which I understand is nothing but just seeing a higher number after a hard week of work bums me out. So fast forward to that night I had just got home from work and was lounging around with hubby. I had to make dinner but could not find the motivation to make anything. I really I mean REALLY wanted pizza. I figured its quick and easy and I can just sit on the couch with my hubby and watch grey's anatomy and eat pizza. Well that didn't happen the hubs would not let me order pizza and it made me so angry and put me in a bad mood. It's pretty bad when I get that pissed about not being able to eat something even when its in my best interest. So I ended up cooking dinner and my recipe for the day was a turkey burger with cottage fries (12skinny ones) and a salad and it was so good! I was proud of myself for eating well and not giving in to my huge craving even though I would have if hubby wasn't around. Isn't that awful!

                                        So I started week three of Power 90 and the workouts still kick my butt and I'm only on level 1-2. I put in the dvd for level 3-4 just to see what I should be expecting and it is exactly the same thing just at a way faster pace. I already have a hard time keeping up then they expect me to put it in fast forward mode! Well that won't be for about another 4weeks so hopefully I will be able to keep up.

                                        On Monday I went to the store to get my groceries for the week but have been having a hard time finding soy nuts so I thought I would try sprouts before heading to the regular store. That may have been the best decision I have ever made. I had never been there before and so I found the soy nuts and decided to look around and see what else on my list I could get. They had almost everything I needed and some things were in a way healthier form. So I go to check out and thought it would be pretty expensive and I only spent $60! The same things would have cost me over $100 at fry's. So Sprouts is my new go to place. I was so happy.  So my eating plan has some amazing food on it like I have said before. I can't believe some of the recipes it has on there they are so good! So I wanted to share another for all the cat fish lovers out there. I had never  had catfish but I tried it and it was amazing!! Recipes are from

                                        Pan Fried Catfish
                                        Prep Time: 5 minutes or less
                                        Total Time: 15 minutes
                                        Cook Time: 10 minutes
                                        • 2 1/2 tablespoons milk, fat-free
                                        • 4 1/2 ounces catfish fillet, raw
                                        • 1/4 teaspoon garlic powder
                                        • 1/8 teaspoon black pepper
                                        • 3 tablespoons corn flakes, plain


                                        • Pour milk into shallow dish; dip fish into milk and turn to coat.
                                        • Stir together garlic powder, pepper and corn flake crumbs with a fork. Pour onto a plate and dip fish, turning to coat.
                                        • Coat skillet lightly with cooking spray; heat on medium. Add fish and cook 3 minutes; turn and heat an additional 2 minutes. Reduce heat to low and continue to heat several more minutes, or until fish flakes easily with a fork.
                                        Garlic Spinach
                                        Prep Time: 5 minutes or less
                                        Total Time: 15 minutes
                                        Cook Time: 10 minutes
                                        • 1/2 teaspoon olive oil
                                        • 4 cups spinach, fresh, chopped
                                        • 1 teaspoon garlic, chopped
                                        • 1/8 teaspoon black pepper
                                        • 1 teaspoon lemon juice


                                        • Heat olive oil in skillet over medium heat. Add garlic and sauté for 1-2 minutes. Add spinach and stir until wilted. Season with pepper and lemon juice.
                                        Corn Bread
                                        Prep Time: 5 minutes or less
                                        Total Time: 5 minutes or less
                                        Cook Time: 0 minutes
                                        • 1 piece cornbread, 2.5 x 2.5 x 1.5 inch


                                        • Prepare corn bread per package directions.
                                        • Cut a 2.5 x 2.5 inch piece and enjoy for dinner.

                                          Wednesday, September 1, 2010

                                          Real Quick

                                          Time for another blog hop... Just wanted to post this but I will be back tonight after school to write!!