So I made a decision...

So I had the last four days off of work which has been amazing by the way. Of course on those days off no working out was done. I don't know what my deal is... I sit there and think about it and tell myself I'm going to do and it just doesn't happen. So Steve and I decided we are starting over from day 1. New photos new measurements, new attitude. The only thing is, I'm stepping down from p90x for right now. I wasn't getting the results I desired but of course I wasn't 100% committed, so that would make sense. It just felt out of my league even though I was doing about 80% of the workouts. I ordered Power 90 yesterday and I'm going to do that first while hubby does P90X. I have seen so many good stories about the Power 90 workout and people have lost a ton of weight on the program then "graduate" to P90X but I think I'm going to do Power 90, then slim in 6, Turbo fire, then finish it with p90x. I know I can do it and now that I know what is expected of the program I think I will succeed. My issue is the diet I can follow it great while I'm at work but when I come home and I don't want to cook I make bad choices and we usually go out to eat. Also alcohol is my downfall. We drink a lot cocktails, beer, wine we do it all. So I need  to clear out the cabinet and not buy beer anymore. I'm committed I'm ready for my body to change and I know I can do it. I can't wait for the videos to get here. I feel like a failure for quitting p90x but I'm excited to work my way up to it and finsih my fitness goal with it!

Getting back into it...

So last week was a disaster when it came to working out. We had the goal in mind to make everything up but life has just been so crazy and we are always getting pulled in different directions. When it came to doing yoga I seriously was not in the mood for a 1 1/2 hour workout. We had somewhere to be at 10 and hubs wanted to take me to dinner which was a suprise that I couldn't say no to! So we decided to pass it to saturday then saturday came and I fell asleep at 6:00. I had been going to bed everynight before around 1 am so it finally caught up with me. Then Sunday came and we both had to work since we are going to have this weekend off so we sat there and said forget it lets just repeat last week this up coming week and no skipping whatso ever! So yesterday was core synergistics I got pooped pretty quick. Its crazy how if I dont eat a lot of calories I get tired during the workout but when I eat enough I can keep going and dont feel tired at all.

Today is Cardio X if I work out right when I get home it makes things so much easier. I get in get it over with and have hubby to realx with all night. Also I stepped on the scale this morning and it went down about 3lbs!!! Spark peopel has me do a weekly weigh in under the same conditions. So I usually do it in the morning. I know thats when I'm at my lightest but I figure those conditions are always the same I was so excited!! I was just complaining to Steve about how i wasn't losing any weight and how can someone do p90x without any change and BAM there it was!!! That drives my intensity and my want to work out. Also we just booked a mini vay-cay for my bday where we will be sitting pool side the whole time so I want to try my hardest to look better before that happens!

Completed week one of phase two!!

Well we did it!!! We completed week 1 of phase two. I'm super proud of us because we actually skipped Monday because we were feeling lazy and didnt want to get back into the routine and also skipped Saturday because my parents wanted to do dinner. So we actually made both up on Sunday! We got up at nine and started our legs and back. It was my first time using the pull up bar. I used to use the bands but it didn't feel like I was working hard when I would do them. Now with the pull up bar its so much harder (even using the chair to assist me.) we had to be at church at 10:30 so we got about 35mins into the workout. It takes us a little longer since we are sharing a pull-up bar. It was so hard working out like that on an empty stomach first thing in the morning. but as Tony would say I was "sweating like hell" which was awesome!

After church I went to Walmart to pick up a heart rate monitor. I recently went onto WebMd and saw an article about working out and what my heart rate should be and if your above it its pretty much wasting your time. So I picked one up and its pretty awesome! Very confusing at first but I got the hang of it. We did kenpo and I forgot how awesome it was!! We had only done it one time since it was our Saturday workout and things always seemed to come up on our Saturday nights after we got off of work. So after our kenpo we finished our legs and back and then had ab ripper x. It was an intense day almost 3hours of working out!

 This is the heart rate monitor I got its super awesome! The band goes around my chest and  monitors my heart rate the whole workout. Whenever I change zones either being under, in, or above. Then at the end it gives me a summary of how long I was in each zone and how many calories I burned. For about $50 bucks I couldn't ask for more.

Almost finished with the first week of phase 2!!!

It's been a while since I have wrote about my P90X journey. When we got to the third week of the first phase we got  little sidetracked and kept putting off the workouts, and our meal plan fell through. So we decided to repeat that week and started off strong and then lost it again. So hubby and I said to eachother lets just start the week four which is the recovery week and then start with phase two the following week. but once again that fell through we only did the day and got sidetracked. Its so hard to stay motivated sometimes... I want the results but when I get off of work the last thing I want to do is to work out for an hour even when its in my own living room. It's hard for me to get off the couch and just do it but I know when I do it that I will feel good and be happy with myself, and that it may not be what I want to do now but when the 90days is over I know I actually accomplished something and I know that there will be results even if I dont hit my goal there is no way that there will not be something that doesn't happen. So Hubby and I decided July will be the month to "bring it" following the meal plan as much as possible and really pushing ourselves in the workout. So we did our measurements for the past 30 days and I gained about 1/2 a pound which upset me but my bfp went down 2% so I'm figuring muscle caused the gain. I have always been told to stay away from the scale at first because it may show increase but for some reason I can't seem to stay away from it so its now sitting in my garage to ease the temptation.

 Anyway, My waist went down 2 inches but nothing in my hips. My right leg lost an inch but the left stayed the same. Also my chest went up like 1/4 inch which I found strange. So not the results I was hoping for but any change is good I guess. We took our "30" day photos and I can't see a difference but I have noticed for most people the results at that stage are minimal.

We started the first week of phase one on Tuesday. The plan is almost identical to before, for me being on the lean plan only one day changes. I did core synergistics on Tuesday and tried to do everything the best I could. I still can't get the hang of that "Dreya Roll" but I the squat xpress thing and did all 30 Yay me!!! Then Wednesday was Cardio X. Once again I did almost all of it and was dripping in sweat. We decided to start up with c25k again and did the 8 min run 5min walk interval, and it busted my butt but I was able to do both 8min runs which felt awesome. As we were walking back to the house I was telling Steve that I could remember barley being able to do the 1min run and now running 8 without stopping!! It was so hot though still in the 100's at 10:00 at night. I was dripping in sweat but it felt awesome to get back out there again and start running.

Tonight is our 20min run with c25k without any walking dont know how thats going to go but I'm ready to try it!! I did chest, shoulders and triceps last night that was super hard, push ups are not my thing but I did the girlie ones and I feel I did a pretty good job. Super sore today but it makes me happy to know I actually did something to get my muscles sore. Tonight is yoga again.... oh how I loathe it but i know its worth it. I'm going to try to keep up with this blog to keep me motivated. Maybe even get some readers : ) recommitted.to have a full four weeks of working out and rt

Week Two day 2!!!

Today was my second round of Cardio X and it was extreme. This time I could do everything and almost the full amount but the drea roll I still can't get the hang of that. I am more sore this week after wards then last week but worked a lot harder and was practically dripping in sweat. It was nice to have a rest day on Sunday we definitely needed it but didn't get a chance to run it would of have been around 11 if we did and my brothers wanted to stay the night as well. On Monday it was core synergistics I tried doing it on a hungry belly and the intensity made me almost vomit I was so happy when it was over. Tomorrow is shoulders and chest looking forward to working out with the hubby again. Our first two days are different but the rest of the week is the same. I'm for sure not looking forward to yoga that was the hardest thing but kenpo is definitely my fave.

Day 5-Legs and arms!

Today was day five on my P90X journey it was legs and arms. I had difficulty with the arms because a lot of it revolved around the pull up bar which we have but I don't feel comfortable using when I am home by myself. so I would just use the dumbbells to do the same action as the video and it still worked me out pretty good and I definitely am sore in my arms and legs! Yesterday was supposed to be our week4 day2 of c25k but we skipped because we would of have gone running around 11 that was ok with me but Steve of course didn't want to which was a bummer but we made up for it tonight. It was a little bit harder then normal because we worked out legs today but I still feel accomplished being able to run two 5min intervals without stopping. Only two months until our 5k as long as we stay on schedule. Tomorrow is Kenpo in P90X then Sunday is rest day can't wait. I have been having a hard time sticking with the diet. Not meaning I have been eating junk but eating enough of the blocks I always seem to short myself protein or veggies. I actually feel good today because at work there was so much junk food that Justin brought it and I didn't eat anything even though it seemed like it was calling my name. There was so much junk doughnut holes, starbursts, soda's, cookies and cupcakes and I said no I was proud of myself!! Date night tomorrow with my husband can't wait!

A New Beginning

My original plan was to start this from our first day of p90x but things turned out a little differently and now we are at day 4 with yoga. I never imagined yoga could possibly be so difficult but if that's what it takes we have to do it. I am so focused on losing this weight its incredible I have never had so much desire, focus, and want of something. I never want to be this heavy again. I remember when I graduated high school in '05 my scale never saw 130lbs and now five years later it has seen all the way up to 199 (after we got back from New Orleans) when I stepped on the scale and saw that I almost burst into tears its hard knowing what I used to be and what I have let myself get to. I remember back in my senior year when I was eating lunch with Manuel and he was surprised how much I could eat without gaining anything and all I did was laugh and tell him "I will never be one of those girls who complains about their weight" now five years later I'm sure I mention it to Steve at least once a day... When we got engaged I thought that was my time to turn my life around I bought my dress it fit fine but was size 12 I couldn't believe it but I figured I have around 10months to lose some weight then I can have it brought in to fit. So I joined pure fitness with every intention to lose weight I first I would skip it or bail out of meeting with people to go but then I started going on my own after work even if I wasn't meeting anyone and I got into a really awesome groove. I was working out so hard yet my weight didn't budge which was really discouraging. So I quit. Then in January I took all my bridesmaids to get their dresses for the wedding and they were asking when I was going to get my alterations done and I hadn't even thought of it so I told them after lunch I would try it on and see what I would need to have done. We all got to my house and I put on my dress and IT WOULDN'T ZIP UP. I immediately freaked out because the wedding was only two months away and I was clueless to what they could do so I called asking if I could exchange it and they said no but that it possibly may be able to be let out so I made an appointment to have them look at it they told me it could be let out and I had a certain amount of time before they needed to work on it. I asked if I were to work out how many inches I would have to lose for it to fit and they told me inches around my chest would be perfect. I walked out of there thinking I was fine I would hit the gym for four weeks and lose those 3inches in no time. Ironically that same day my personal trainer called from the gym and asked when I would be in again for my free monthly training session and I set something up the next day. I felt like God understood how frustrated I was and he had them call me to light the fire under me. I busted my but for those four weeks ate healthy and everything and felt super confident that I wouldn't need the alterations and that I had completed my goal. I went to my alterations appointment and THE DRESS STILL WOUDN'T ZIP UP. I was devasated I felt that I had given it my all and that nothing happened was I going to be fat for the rest of my life? Around that time my average weight was about 188-190 never more then that so I had the dress fixed and everthing was fine when it came to the wedding then we had the honeymoon. A honeymoon is supposed to be a sex filled romantic time and we only had done it a few times. I felt like a fat blob and the complete opposite of sexy while at the same time Steve had come up with a terrible head cold/sinus infection. Needless to say we still had a blast but wasn't all we had hoped for. When getting back to land and stepping on the scale it went up about 5lbs so I was back to square one again. I finally just gave up I didn't want to think about weight anymore even though I was so depressed and unhappy with myself. I would weigh myself daily and it would fluctuate up and down but nothing significant. Then in May it was time for another trip this time heading to New Orleans. All we did while we were there was eat and drink booze not a good combo for someone trying to lose weight. When we got back I stepped on the scale and saw it had hit 199 even when I would weigh myself without any clothes I couldn't believe it. That is the moment I decided that I needed to turn myself around with no looking back and go from fat to fit. I want to be able to look good in bikini, I want to be able to wear shorts without cellulite all over the place, I want to be able to wear a tank top without having extreme paranoia that I have the biggest arms around and that everyone is looking at me. I don't want to have to buy semi baggy shirts to hide my roll and i don't want to be embarrassed to see old high school friends because all i can think about is what is running through their minds when they see me. So that's when we decided to make a change and go with C25K and P90X. We found P90X on ebay for about $60 less then what you could find it on the tv for and ordered it. When we got it and read through it it seemed pretty intimidating. But we decided to go along with it but give it a few weeks while we worked on our C25K. I found C25k on the nest message boards and it seemed fool proof all you have to do is spare 3hours a week in non consecutive days and alternate running and walking how hard could it be. Well to my surprise it was hard when we first started even though it had us doing more running then walking. But we have gotten the hang of it and now we are at the point of where we are running at 5min intervals without stopping! For a runner that's probably nothing but to a person who according to the BMI calculator is obese it is quite an accomplishment. So we started P90x on May 31st I am doing lean while hubby does the classic one. We do it at the same time but if our order is requiring a different room I get the bedroom while he does the living room. Monday for me was core synergistics which all I can say was intense I couldn't believe it I honestly could only do half the moves because either my body wouldn't move the way theirs did or I has completely exhausted but I still felt good about it. Then onto Tuesday was Cardiox I really liked that one I was sweating like no other but felt like I was accomplishing something and kept up pretty well I just can't believe all the food the meal plan requires I feel like all we do is eat eat and eat! We also did our first day of week4 day 1 for c25k. Trying to train for a 5k along with p90x is difficult but I really want to run our first 5k on my bday I never thought I could do it but running five mins was such an amazing feeling let alone doing it twice. I read in a magazine that if a woman repeated to herself I am strong and beautiful before a race she would run complete her run in better time then not saying it. So when the running gets harder I just tell myself "your strong and beautiful and your going to look so good once all of this is done." It really helps to push myself and not give up. Anyway Wednesday was the first day hubby and I worked out together it was shoulders and arms along with ab ripper x. The arms and shoulders was not too difficult but the ab ripper I think I nearly died I haven't had that much core work in my life but I feel it will really pay off! If I can get to the end of p90x and do all the moves that are in that 15mins I will really feel like I accomplished something! Having hubby do the exercise with me is really holding me accountable and makes me excited to do it and not dread it like other exercises also having him do the meal plan makes it that much easier all we have is healthy food in the house and with him eating the good stuff i don't have any temptations. Today is Thursday and hubs closes at work while I have the day off so and its also a p90x/c25k day so we figure get up and do one or the other before he has to go to work and then do the other in the evening. Like I said before today is the yoga today and it has been by far the hardest let alone the longest one. I can only take so many downward/upward dogs and runners pose. We could only do about half because of how intense it was and will do the rest tonight our form was lacking along with our desire to do it. I'm glad it's only one day a week. Last night I stepped on the scale to see what was going on even though it had only been three days and I figured I would be heavier since we have been eating so much food but to my surprise I have lost 2.5lbs!!!! I have always heard you have to eat more to lose if your active because if not your body goes into starvation mode and i guess its true I was so happy when I saw that and to have hubby tell me good job or my stomach looks flat is so awesome and makes me feel proud. He probably has no idea the affect it has on me but even just thinking about it makes me smile <3 So 4days down 86 to go to hopefully a whole new me!!