It was a long weekend

My life has been pretty uneventful lately. My daily routine is get up make breakfast, lunch, and two snacks for work,then go to work come home, work out, then make dinner, watch tv then go to bed. Everyday is the same unless I'm off of work then I go to school. It's time for a change but I have no idea where to start. Anyway I'm a little disappointed in my morning weigh in. Last Thursday when I weighed in I was at 186.8 then today 4days later I am at 186.7 I lost .1lb. Does that even count as a loss??? So I am going back to once a week weigh ins instead of everyday. Monday is the new day to weigh in since its a start to a new week. I don't understand why the scale hasn't moved at all. I have been eating right and working out the days I am supposed to and still nothing. I am going to try to change it up a bit to see if I can get some results. Granted this is my first time without a loss and I didn't even go the full week, but still. Lately when I get home from work I work out then eat dinner, which would have me eating dinner around 9-9:30, I usually don't go to bed until midnight anyway so I do have enough digestion time in there but I still think its too late. So this week I am going to try to eat first when I get home then workout after my food has settled of course. I think that may help. I just really want to get to this first 10lb loss mark and I know I can do it and I'm almost there.

I also want to start running again it has finally started to cool down in Az a bit and I'm ready to get back into C25K again. I think the added cardio will for sure help me lose some lbs. The only thing is that I like to run in the evening because I hate getting up early so that's not an option, but that means running in the dark by myself. My hubby doesn't want to run because he is trying to add on lbs with muscle and he is the type that any type of cardio makes him lose weight (men have it so easy!) So I'm kind of at a loss because I am a big fradey cat and wont run alone at night. Maybe I should just suck it up and do it in the am. I really want to run in a 5k and add that to my list of accomplishments in my weight loss journey. Any suggestions?

Do any of you enjoy running and if so do you ever do it alone?

Yes I'm still here!

So It's been a week since I actually made a real post and not to much has happend. On Monday we went to hubby's dads bbq and I think I did ok. Had some ribs, potato salad and fresh fruit with some reisling. Then for dessert which I could of have done without, we had a small brownie with ice cream. The kind that comes in a small cup with a wooden spoon. We spent the majority of the day in the pool and was too exhausted to work out when we got home. So once again two days in row skipped. I went and weighed in for the biggest loser challenge on Wednesday after school. I was bummed though because I weighed in for the contest and it was 9 at night so the reading wsn't accurate and I was embarrased to have someone else see my weight besides hubby and you guys : )

I really wanted to be a 185lbs by tomorrow but I don't think that's going to happen I got on the scale this morning and it was 188.0lbs boo. Earlier this week it was 187.7 but that's the lowest I got. It's still a loss but normally I lose about 2 a week and this wasn't even a full 1. I guess I'm getting greedy. I decided that Saturday's are my days off from working out. They are always too busy to try to fit something in. It's also a day where I eat a little junk food. I don't want it to call it a "cheat" day because I don't consider what I'm doing a diet it's a lifestyle change. Just a day where I don't make the healthiest of choices. The weather is getting a little bit nicer here in Az I can't wait to start running. I'm ready to finish c25k! Hubby ran with me before but now he isn't sure he wants to anymore because he is trying everything to gain weight and running will help him lose. I considered doing it on a treadmill but I like to do it outside especially since I want to run in an actual 5k. He's the only one I want to run with I hope he changes his mind. On Tuesday we take our 30day pics I'll post them up So you guys can see my progress if any : )

Almost finished with the first week of phase 2!!!

It's been a while since I have wrote about my P90X journey. When we got to the third week of the first phase we got  little sidetracked and kept putting off the workouts, and our meal plan fell through. So we decided to repeat that week and started off strong and then lost it again. So hubby and I said to eachother lets just start the week four which is the recovery week and then start with phase two the following week. but once again that fell through we only did the day and got sidetracked. Its so hard to stay motivated sometimes... I want the results but when I get off of work the last thing I want to do is to work out for an hour even when its in my own living room. It's hard for me to get off the couch and just do it but I know when I do it that I will feel good and be happy with myself, and that it may not be what I want to do now but when the 90days is over I know I actually accomplished something and I know that there will be results even if I dont hit my goal there is no way that there will not be something that doesn't happen. So Hubby and I decided July will be the month to "bring it" following the meal plan as much as possible and really pushing ourselves in the workout. So we did our measurements for the past 30 days and I gained about 1/2 a pound which upset me but my bfp went down 2% so I'm figuring muscle caused the gain. I have always been told to stay away from the scale at first because it may show increase but for some reason I can't seem to stay away from it so its now sitting in my garage to ease the temptation.

 Anyway, My waist went down 2 inches but nothing in my hips. My right leg lost an inch but the left stayed the same. Also my chest went up like 1/4 inch which I found strange. So not the results I was hoping for but any change is good I guess. We took our "30" day photos and I can't see a difference but I have noticed for most people the results at that stage are minimal.

We started the first week of phase one on Tuesday. The plan is almost identical to before, for me being on the lean plan only one day changes. I did core synergistics on Tuesday and tried to do everything the best I could. I still can't get the hang of that "Dreya Roll" but I the squat xpress thing and did all 30 Yay me!!! Then Wednesday was Cardio X. Once again I did almost all of it and was dripping in sweat. We decided to start up with c25k again and did the 8 min run 5min walk interval, and it busted my butt but I was able to do both 8min runs which felt awesome. As we were walking back to the house I was telling Steve that I could remember barley being able to do the 1min run and now running 8 without stopping!! It was so hot though still in the 100's at 10:00 at night. I was dripping in sweat but it felt awesome to get back out there again and start running.

Tonight is our 20min run with c25k without any walking dont know how thats going to go but I'm ready to try it!! I did chest, shoulders and triceps last night that was super hard, push ups are not my thing but I did the girlie ones and I feel I did a pretty good job. Super sore today but it makes me happy to know I actually did something to get my muscles sore. Tonight is yoga again.... oh how I loathe it but i know its worth it. I'm going to try to keep up with this blog to keep me motivated. Maybe even get some readers : ) recommitted.to have a full four weeks of working out and rt

Day 5-Legs and arms!

Today was day five on my P90X journey it was legs and arms. I had difficulty with the arms because a lot of it revolved around the pull up bar which we have but I don't feel comfortable using when I am home by myself. so I would just use the dumbbells to do the same action as the video and it still worked me out pretty good and I definitely am sore in my arms and legs! Yesterday was supposed to be our week4 day2 of c25k but we skipped because we would of have gone running around 11 that was ok with me but Steve of course didn't want to which was a bummer but we made up for it tonight. It was a little bit harder then normal because we worked out legs today but I still feel accomplished being able to run two 5min intervals without stopping. Only two months until our 5k as long as we stay on schedule. Tomorrow is Kenpo in P90X then Sunday is rest day can't wait. I have been having a hard time sticking with the diet. Not meaning I have been eating junk but eating enough of the blocks I always seem to short myself protein or veggies. I actually feel good today because at work there was so much junk food that Justin brought it and I didn't eat anything even though it seemed like it was calling my name. There was so much junk doughnut holes, starbursts, soda's, cookies and cupcakes and I said no I was proud of myself!! Date night tomorrow with my husband can't wait!

A New Beginning

My original plan was to start this from our first day of p90x but things turned out a little differently and now we are at day 4 with yoga. I never imagined yoga could possibly be so difficult but if that's what it takes we have to do it. I am so focused on losing this weight its incredible I have never had so much desire, focus, and want of something. I never want to be this heavy again. I remember when I graduated high school in '05 my scale never saw 130lbs and now five years later it has seen all the way up to 199 (after we got back from New Orleans) when I stepped on the scale and saw that I almost burst into tears its hard knowing what I used to be and what I have let myself get to. I remember back in my senior year when I was eating lunch with Manuel and he was surprised how much I could eat without gaining anything and all I did was laugh and tell him "I will never be one of those girls who complains about their weight" now five years later I'm sure I mention it to Steve at least once a day... When we got engaged I thought that was my time to turn my life around I bought my dress it fit fine but was size 12 I couldn't believe it but I figured I have around 10months to lose some weight then I can have it brought in to fit. So I joined pure fitness with every intention to lose weight I first I would skip it or bail out of meeting with people to go but then I started going on my own after work even if I wasn't meeting anyone and I got into a really awesome groove. I was working out so hard yet my weight didn't budge which was really discouraging. So I quit. Then in January I took all my bridesmaids to get their dresses for the wedding and they were asking when I was going to get my alterations done and I hadn't even thought of it so I told them after lunch I would try it on and see what I would need to have done. We all got to my house and I put on my dress and IT WOULDN'T ZIP UP. I immediately freaked out because the wedding was only two months away and I was clueless to what they could do so I called asking if I could exchange it and they said no but that it possibly may be able to be let out so I made an appointment to have them look at it they told me it could be let out and I had a certain amount of time before they needed to work on it. I asked if I were to work out how many inches I would have to lose for it to fit and they told me inches around my chest would be perfect. I walked out of there thinking I was fine I would hit the gym for four weeks and lose those 3inches in no time. Ironically that same day my personal trainer called from the gym and asked when I would be in again for my free monthly training session and I set something up the next day. I felt like God understood how frustrated I was and he had them call me to light the fire under me. I busted my but for those four weeks ate healthy and everything and felt super confident that I wouldn't need the alterations and that I had completed my goal. I went to my alterations appointment and THE DRESS STILL WOUDN'T ZIP UP. I was devasated I felt that I had given it my all and that nothing happened was I going to be fat for the rest of my life? Around that time my average weight was about 188-190 never more then that so I had the dress fixed and everthing was fine when it came to the wedding then we had the honeymoon. A honeymoon is supposed to be a sex filled romantic time and we only had done it a few times. I felt like a fat blob and the complete opposite of sexy while at the same time Steve had come up with a terrible head cold/sinus infection. Needless to say we still had a blast but wasn't all we had hoped for. When getting back to land and stepping on the scale it went up about 5lbs so I was back to square one again. I finally just gave up I didn't want to think about weight anymore even though I was so depressed and unhappy with myself. I would weigh myself daily and it would fluctuate up and down but nothing significant. Then in May it was time for another trip this time heading to New Orleans. All we did while we were there was eat and drink booze not a good combo for someone trying to lose weight. When we got back I stepped on the scale and saw it had hit 199 even when I would weigh myself without any clothes I couldn't believe it. That is the moment I decided that I needed to turn myself around with no looking back and go from fat to fit. I want to be able to look good in bikini, I want to be able to wear shorts without cellulite all over the place, I want to be able to wear a tank top without having extreme paranoia that I have the biggest arms around and that everyone is looking at me. I don't want to have to buy semi baggy shirts to hide my roll and i don't want to be embarrassed to see old high school friends because all i can think about is what is running through their minds when they see me. So that's when we decided to make a change and go with C25K and P90X. We found P90X on ebay for about $60 less then what you could find it on the tv for and ordered it. When we got it and read through it it seemed pretty intimidating. But we decided to go along with it but give it a few weeks while we worked on our C25K. I found C25k on the nest message boards and it seemed fool proof all you have to do is spare 3hours a week in non consecutive days and alternate running and walking how hard could it be. Well to my surprise it was hard when we first started even though it had us doing more running then walking. But we have gotten the hang of it and now we are at the point of where we are running at 5min intervals without stopping! For a runner that's probably nothing but to a person who according to the BMI calculator is obese it is quite an accomplishment. So we started P90x on May 31st I am doing lean while hubby does the classic one. We do it at the same time but if our order is requiring a different room I get the bedroom while he does the living room. Monday for me was core synergistics which all I can say was intense I couldn't believe it I honestly could only do half the moves because either my body wouldn't move the way theirs did or I has completely exhausted but I still felt good about it. Then onto Tuesday was Cardiox I really liked that one I was sweating like no other but felt like I was accomplishing something and kept up pretty well I just can't believe all the food the meal plan requires I feel like all we do is eat eat and eat! We also did our first day of week4 day 1 for c25k. Trying to train for a 5k along with p90x is difficult but I really want to run our first 5k on my bday I never thought I could do it but running five mins was such an amazing feeling let alone doing it twice. I read in a magazine that if a woman repeated to herself I am strong and beautiful before a race she would run complete her run in better time then not saying it. So when the running gets harder I just tell myself "your strong and beautiful and your going to look so good once all of this is done." It really helps to push myself and not give up. Anyway Wednesday was the first day hubby and I worked out together it was shoulders and arms along with ab ripper x. The arms and shoulders was not too difficult but the ab ripper I think I nearly died I haven't had that much core work in my life but I feel it will really pay off! If I can get to the end of p90x and do all the moves that are in that 15mins I will really feel like I accomplished something! Having hubby do the exercise with me is really holding me accountable and makes me excited to do it and not dread it like other exercises also having him do the meal plan makes it that much easier all we have is healthy food in the house and with him eating the good stuff i don't have any temptations. Today is Thursday and hubs closes at work while I have the day off so and its also a p90x/c25k day so we figure get up and do one or the other before he has to go to work and then do the other in the evening. Like I said before today is the yoga today and it has been by far the hardest let alone the longest one. I can only take so many downward/upward dogs and runners pose. We could only do about half because of how intense it was and will do the rest tonight our form was lacking along with our desire to do it. I'm glad it's only one day a week. Last night I stepped on the scale to see what was going on even though it had only been three days and I figured I would be heavier since we have been eating so much food but to my surprise I have lost 2.5lbs!!!! I have always heard you have to eat more to lose if your active because if not your body goes into starvation mode and i guess its true I was so happy when I saw that and to have hubby tell me good job or my stomach looks flat is so awesome and makes me feel proud. He probably has no idea the affect it has on me but even just thinking about it makes me smile <3 So 4days down 86 to go to hopefully a whole new me!!