Wednesday, May 23, 2012

A wakeup call and a whole new approach...

Things have changed a lot around here and I just haven't had the time to get everything into a post life is so crazy and I'm just lazy lol but for a brief overview. Insanity was too much for me right now I still have it and will complete it by the end of the year. I wasn't seeing any results with it and was not happy with that. I mean seriously I lost like 2lbs in the first month. I am back to my soul mate workout of turbo fire and pairing that up with Brazil Butt Lift! I restarted both yesterday and can't wait to see what the results are. I have changed my whole approach and my way of thinking and I feel like I have a plan for success. I also have a goal I'm working towards with a deadline. I did turbo back in feb to march before a big vacation and lost 8pounds and actually saw the lowest weight on the scale that I had ever seen and also lost two pant sizes now I am back up to what I was before I started and the clothes I wore on that trip no longer fit me. I feel like a failure and I feel like I let everyone down who reads this blog.

I'm also a fitness coach with beachbody and have a fairly large amount of people who are signed up under me. How can I expect them to stick with it and reach their goals if I can't even commit and do the same thing.!? So that seriously stops now. I want to be able to say I completed a beachbody program. I want to be able to say I am out of the 160's  and even say I hit my goal, I want to be able to look sexy for my husband even though he says I look just fine the way I am...  I want to be able to wear cute lingerie and feel sexy, I want to hang out with my sister and my cousin who have amazing bodies and sit poolside and not feel like a fatty and be so embarrassed of myself. I want to take a picture in a bikini in July and look confident when we go to California and not even think twice about if people are looking at me and thinking I'm to fat to be in that and being proud to post them online. I want to be healthy, and most of all I just want to be happy with my self and proud of myself. I have never completed anything in my life... I always give up, get lazy, and just I never finish a fitness program, I can't even consistently blog for more then a week, and I quit even with college classes its so ridiculous. I can't be this way anymore and something needs to change. How can I expect to get somewhere if I don't even apply myself, right now I'm repeating the same actions hoping for a dif result hello I'm doing the def of insanity! I seriously have 0 excuses but being pure lazy. I know that the food I choose to eat is terrible for me, it gives me 0 energy and it wastes money. I need to be a wife to my husband and cook for him, clean for him, and not expect him to do it all. I know I shouldn't be drinking alcohol almost everyday (not in a alcoholic way we just both like to have a drink while hanging out or with friends and fam) I know I shouldn't skip workouts. I know EXACTLY what I have to do to reach my goal and  yet I still blow it off. Its not rocket science move more and burn more then what I eat... hello I even have a bodybugg that gives me an exact number so I know what to do EVERY SINGLE DAY! I had awesome results with turbo the first month that I applied myself and completed it the first month. I didn't skip 1 workout I ate out twice and had alcohol once. So obviously it is possible. My life couldn't be any easier right now, I work part time so basically 27hours a week I don't even go into work until 130 at the earliest and I lay around or sleep all morning. How embarrassing! If I was coaching someone and they acted like me I would be so frustrated with them because I know they are only hurting themselves. Well its time to be my own coach since I don't really have anyone pushing me or keeping me accountable and change my life around! Beachbody programs work if you put in a little bit of effort. These workouts are not even a full hour what the hell is my excuse! So for now things will be different, and no I will not be one of those ppl who say that and go back to old ways I am seriously done with that and more fired up then I ever have been in my life. I will not be overweight anymore and it all changed yesterday. I had got up around 1030 was laying on my couch after having breakfast and looking at pinterest and was about to take a nap an hour after I had just got up and told myself no get up and workout and I did and I felt awesome for doing it. I need to have that attitude everyday and remember I am doing this for me, my husband, and to show people that if you REALLY REALLY set your mind on something you can do it. I will not be one of those bloggers who keep saying they are going to change and then screw it all up. I will never get anywhere if I keep going that way.

These will fit when I go to california!

So as of yesterday my weight started at 172.4 (I think this was the exact amount I weighed when I last started turbo) Wednesdays are my official weigh in days and I am at 171.6. I have two tickers on the right side of my blog. One for my ultimate goal, and one for 5% goal. If I only focus on my end goal I'll forget my little milestones along the way. So I'm off to do my workout you will be seeing more of me around here and I'll blog pure honesty not just stay away when I don't do what I should but hopefully there won't be too many bad things that happen workout/food wise. I know its not going to be a walk in the park but I have a goal in mind and I WILL HIT IT!

Because This...
All my weakness's

Will never get me...


  1. Good luck with your goals! Accountability is something I need right now too.

  2. You're a strong girl. I know you can do it! Rooting for ya~

  3. I could have written every word of this. You've re-inspired me!

  4. You sound a lot like me. I would wake up be up for an hour then go back to bed. I was doing great with working out for a few weeks but then stopped and am now having a hard time trying to get back into it. I'm pretty much my own cheerleader but also my worst enemy.

    I'm doing a biggest loser challenge, so if you're up for it and if you think it'll help you be accountable come join. Weigh in's are every sunday. I only have two other people who wanted to join, and I still have a few people to ask and depending on the amount of people I'll set up teams.

  5. Feeling sexy and pretty for a woman is a confidence-booster! Being able to feel that you are at your healthiest can definitely get your self-esteem rising! Christina, you are on the right track. Keep it up, and good luck! :)