Everything is going great and a day of eats!

Everything has been going good since I restarted on Tuesday haven't missed a workout and have been feeling great. After I wrote my post yesterday I was feeling awesome I ate all my meals at home but then was faced with a huge temptation in the evening. I went to a conference type thing for work at 7 and they were serving buffalo wings, mini pizzas, spinach dip, cheese and crackers, chicken kabobs and sliders. Complete opposite of what I wanted to eat and was exactly what I was talking about in my post earlier in the day. My hubby was there too since we both work for the same company and he was eating away at that stuff. I told myself I didn't need any of it and I ate a granola bar that I had packed in my lunch from earlier that day. It was hard for me to not say oh just give me that I'll restart tomorrow but I have changed the way I thought and told myself "you don't need this food, you just ate lunch not too long ago, it will just turn into waste and add on unneeded extra weight" and I didn't eat any of it. I was pretty proud of myself : ) Now if I can just keep on doing that hitting goal will be a lot easier then I think : )

Also Normally on days where hubby and I have the evening off together the first thing I think of where is it that we should go eat? But today it was different it didn't even cross my mind and I am super proud of myself for that. I ended up making a super yummy dinner with food we had in the fridge : )

Today I had a total of 1433 cals here is what I ate for the day. Here was my breakfast

pineapple, and cantalope, 1/4cup egg white, mushrooms, spinach, and 1 egg with black beans, english muffin and green tea

lunch was chocolate shakeology, with keurig mocha and 1/2cup milk

Dinner was chicken with panko, 1/2cup of baked beans, 1/4 cup of brown rice, pan fried egg plant and some grape tomato

This dinner was so amazingly good I also had a string cheese for morning snack and chobani for afternoon snack. Its crazy how much you can actually eat if you choose the right foods!

I updated my pounds lost and pounds to go jars since I changed my goal and my weight has been fluctuating so much I decided to update it. Can't wait to see the pounds lost higher then then pounds to go. I really like having things like this to help keep me accountable its nice to have different kind of measurements of my weight loss. Do you use anything like this?

found this idea on pinterest

 I also decided I'm going to take a picture of myself everyday before my workout to help keep me accountable and also I want to make some kind of flip book kinda thing with my progress. I'm not happy with how my bod looks now but I know in the end I will be and I love to see before and afters so I need to make sure I have pics for my before!

how often do you take progress pics of yourself?

A wakeup call and a whole new approach...

Things have changed a lot around here and I just haven't had the time to get everything into a post life is so crazy and I'm just lazy lol but for a brief overview. Insanity was too much for me right now I still have it and will complete it by the end of the year. I wasn't seeing any results with it and was not happy with that. I mean seriously I lost like 2lbs in the first month. I am back to my soul mate workout of turbo fire and pairing that up with Brazil Butt Lift! I restarted both yesterday and can't wait to see what the results are. I have changed my whole approach and my way of thinking and I feel like I have a plan for success. I also have a goal I'm working towards with a deadline. I did turbo back in feb to march before a big vacation and lost 8pounds and actually saw the lowest weight on the scale that I had ever seen and also lost two pant sizes now I am back up to what I was before I started and the clothes I wore on that trip no longer fit me. I feel like a failure and I feel like I let everyone down who reads this blog.

I'm also a fitness coach with beachbody and have a fairly large amount of people who are signed up under me. How can I expect them to stick with it and reach their goals if I can't even commit and do the same thing.!? So that seriously stops now. I want to be able to say I completed a beachbody program. I want to be able to say I am out of the 160's  and even say I hit my goal, I want to be able to look sexy for my husband even though he says I look just fine the way I am...  I want to be able to wear cute lingerie and feel sexy, I want to hang out with my sister and my cousin who have amazing bodies and sit poolside and not feel like a fatty and be so embarrassed of myself. I want to take a picture in a bikini in July and look confident when we go to California and not even think twice about if people are looking at me and thinking I'm to fat to be in that and being proud to post them online. I want to be healthy, and most of all I just want to be happy with my self and proud of myself. I have never completed anything in my life... I always give up, get lazy, and just I never finish a fitness program, I can't even consistently blog for more then a week, and I quit even with college classes its so ridiculous. I can't be this way anymore and something needs to change. How can I expect to get somewhere if I don't even apply myself, right now I'm repeating the same actions hoping for a dif result hello I'm doing the def of insanity! I seriously have 0 excuses but being pure lazy. I know that the food I choose to eat is terrible for me, it gives me 0 energy and it wastes money. I need to be a wife to my husband and cook for him, clean for him, and not expect him to do it all. I know I shouldn't be drinking alcohol almost everyday (not in a alcoholic way we just both like to have a drink while hanging out or with friends and fam) I know I shouldn't skip workouts. I know EXACTLY what I have to do to reach my goal and  yet I still blow it off. Its not rocket science move more and burn more then what I eat... hello I even have a bodybugg that gives me an exact number so I know what to do EVERY SINGLE DAY! I had awesome results with turbo the first month that I applied myself and completed it the first month. I didn't skip 1 workout I ate out twice and had alcohol once. So obviously it is possible. My life couldn't be any easier right now, I work part time so basically 27hours a week I don't even go into work until 130 at the earliest and I lay around or sleep all morning. How embarrassing! If I was coaching someone and they acted like me I would be so frustrated with them because I know they are only hurting themselves. Well its time to be my own coach since I don't really have anyone pushing me or keeping me accountable and change my life around! Beachbody programs work if you put in a little bit of effort. These workouts are not even a full hour what the hell is my excuse! So for now things will be different, and no I will not be one of those ppl who say that and go back to old ways I am seriously done with that and more fired up then I ever have been in my life. I will not be overweight anymore and it all changed yesterday. I had got up around 1030 was laying on my couch after having breakfast and looking at pinterest and was about to take a nap an hour after I had just got up and told myself no get up and workout and I did and I felt awesome for doing it. I need to have that attitude everyday and remember I am doing this for me, my husband, and to show people that if you REALLY REALLY set your mind on something you can do it. I will not be one of those bloggers who keep saying they are going to change and then screw it all up. I will never get anywhere if I keep going that way.

These will fit when I go to california!

So as of yesterday my weight started at 172.4 (I think this was the exact amount I weighed when I last started turbo) Wednesdays are my official weigh in days and I am at 171.6. I have two tickers on the right side of my blog. One for my ultimate goal, and one for 5% goal. If I only focus on my end goal I'll forget my little milestones along the way. So I'm off to do my workout you will be seeing more of me around here and I'll blog pure honesty not just stay away when I don't do what I should but hopefully there won't be too many bad things that happen workout/food wise. I know its not going to be a walk in the park but I have a goal in mind and I WILL HIT IT!

Because This...

All my weakness's

Will never get me...

This

a catch up post

I seem to always let life get the best of me for some reason and put off the things that are important. Insanity is going well we are on recovery week today and I really needed it. I hurt my back last week doing something and could barley move... well I think I pulled a muscle or had some sort of back spasm so I had to skip 3of my insanity workouts since I couldn't even get off of the toilet without wincing... but haven't skipped with recovery week and even started up Brazil Butt Lift this week too! I did a shakeology 3day cleanse where basically you have 3shakes a day along with a piece of fruit and a salad with 4-6oz of white meat for dinner and I lost 4lbs and have yet to gain any of it back!!! I had some bad eating during the weekend because it was my father in laws wedding and he paid to have us stay in a hotel for the weekend which was amazingly nice since it was in the same city but no healthy food around. So the cleanse helped me get rid of any extra weight I would of put on and got rid of all my bloat issues so that was nice!

Our pool is very close to being done and I will post pics with the yard when all of it is set can't wait to get in it... hubby already has but we haven't had it cleaned since they finished and I feel weird about any kind of dirt in water lol It took us 3days to fill it!

Hubby and I went shopping last night and restocked our fridge with a bunch of fresh yummyness got a bunch of chicken some ground beef and lots of fruit and vegetables. I'm gunna start my new series of making one new pinterest food recipe and reviewing it along with pics starting Tuesday and first on the menu will be avocado hummus!!! Let me know if you have any healthy pins you would like me to make and review also you can follow my pins here! I'll always follow back! I love to see peoples ideas and always looking for new recipes!